Well I got the letter from the lawyer that the date for my final divorce hearing is Feb 2, 2007. seems appropriate cause thats the weekend we moved away from everything last year.
Was setting up the holiday decorations, found the orniment that my mom gave us for our first christmas together, spent the rest of the day in tears because I did not choose this, he did.
I realized I will never see my neice or nephiews again, simply because my x-MIL is a bitch and my x-sil is just like her mom.
This is my first christmas without the big family gathering. I have tried to include my new friends into new traditions, but they already have their own and don't want to or can't squeeze new ones in.
My ex's family is jewish adn forthe last decade I have grown to love the hanukkah gatherings where each member of the family had their own menorah to light, i will always remember what it looked like to see all of the kids faces lit by candlelight. I now have one menorah left, the ex insisted on the other 3 because they had "family attachments". a family i am no longer welcome in (if I ever was).
How do you get through the first holiday season? How do you get past all of the traditions that have been ripped away from you?
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